Confessions of a Senior Beach Weekend...

Two posts in one week? Chill out folks, its only because I don't really have any homework to be doing right now. Confessions? Don't get your hopes up- this is me writing here so you know its nothing scandalous. Tomorrow is my last undergraduate Monday of class. Excuse me but when did four years fly by and where did they go? I was thinking about how quickly the past four years have happened, especially this last semester, over my last Furman Beach Weekend. Sure everyone around me was thinking about things other than this but as I was sitting on the beach last night with dear friends, I couldn't help but be overwhelmed with the fact that it truly was the end of my senior year of college. Nothing is quite like sitting on a beach at night and staring into the beautiful dark blue ocean to remind that life is so much more that college and beach weekend. College is that thing in the back of your mind that you always think, "Hey, I'll finish that and be an adult! Real world here I come!" In the words of many seniors, we are so not ready for this. How on earth am I the adult when my life's goal is still to be Ariel? The end of this year if forcing me to come face to face with the fact that a big event in my life is ending and soon we will go our separate ways. I cannot help but be overcome with emotion when I think about all of the incredible memories and friends I have made over four years and how I am not quite ready to let them go. Yes I know I have to but we don't always want to let go of what we love, even if we must.

So here's the confession part: I wasn't exactly ready to let go until this weekend. I had so much fun but I realized that at sometime we have to move on and grow up even when we don't want to. Talking to old friends this weekend made me realize that there is so much out there in the world beyond the Furman bubble, incredible things and places where I don't have to take care of everyone all the time. He reminded me that people like me even when I'm not being the mom and taking care of everyone (which I always forget) and that people grow up and don't need to be taken care of all the time. I am realizing that we have to let people be themselves, grow up a little and sometimes make mistakes. Thank goodness I had people around me who let me make mistakes and find out who I am. So even those this weekend was a blast and I got to make so many more memories with people I love, I know that I will be ready to move on and start my life after Furman. Granted I will probably cry while doing this because lets face it I always cry and leaving is always so hard but I know that I am ready to start a crazy new adventure of two years (and maybe some more) in Charleston. So senior year flew by and yes sometimes I wish I could go back and relive some of those incredible memories but I have plenty of pictures (ha!). More importantly, Charleston is flying towards me fast and sometimes you just have to fly the Furman coop. So here comes the world after Furman but we still have two more weeks to take in swimming in the fountains, the beautiful landscape, running trails and incredible friends. And I intend to.