We took pictures. A lot of pictures. Mostly at my request because I feel the need to document my life constantly. Poor big brother had to take a ridiculous amount of photos until I was pleased with a Christmas card picture. Don't worry he's totally used to this.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Out of the bubble and into the (sort of) real world
We took pictures. A lot of pictures. Mostly at my request because I feel the need to document my life constantly. Poor big brother had to take a ridiculous amount of photos until I was pleased with a Christmas card picture. Don't worry he's totally used to this.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
A letter to Dad
Dear Dad,
Its been quite a while since I last saw you- 19 years today in fact even though I don’t remember a lot from back then. I do know I was a very loved little girl who loved princesses, playing with her annoying big brother, baking with her momma and of course her daddy. I remember flying down the stairs when you came home at night and the way you always came to my rescue. I remember missing you a lot when I was little and you weren’t there anymore and how much I clung even more to Momma and Jonathan. I remember crying myself to sleep because I wished you were there and you weren’t- I sat in bed and hugged my Pinky Bear wishing and praying you would come find me somehow. Slowly, then suddenly I grew up. Momma got married and I had another Dad. I went to school. I fought with Jonathan probably more than I should have. I laughed and playing and still liked princesses. I used to wish you were there all the time but then I grew up and things changed. I realized you were there- when I was happy, when I was mad, when I hated school and was stressed out, when something big happened in my life and I wished more than anything I could see you. Last week I graduated from college. I wish I could say how quickly it came but I can’t. I feel like I was just a little girl playing outside and suddenly I am a (sort of) adult. Even more, I wished you were there- sitting in the stadium, watching and cheering. I longed to see your pride, to hug you and tell you I loved you, to laugh and to cry. I wanted to take pictures with you like we used to and to hold you tight. But I couldn’t- even though I have wished on many a star that I could. Still, I know you were there, watching from above where you have watched over us for so long. I know you would be so proud. Not just of me but of Jonathan and what a great young man he is and the ways we have relied on each other to get through the most difficult times. Even after all this time we are still yours and we try so hard to make you proud and show you we love you, even from all the way down here. It was hard to have so many people I loved around me last weekend but to not have you- I felt as if a part of me was so closed but still so far removed from me. I always feel that way anytime something important happens in my life- no matter how big or small I always think of you. Still I know that even though you’re not beside me, you are there- watching as you always have for the past 19 years. So today remember how much we love you, how much we miss you, and how comforting it is to know you are always with us wherever we go.
Forever your girl,
Allison Sunbeam
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Graduation Gown Woes
Just paid the $40 rental fee for my graudation attire. Once again Furman spares no expense. Oh wait we do get to keep the $1 tassel- they are so generous! So even though its the right length (for once) , it is, to my horror, completely unflatterly. Seriously how many pictures am I going to take on this most important occasion? A lot. So let me wear what is essentially a large black bag with lovely wing like arms? Oh you shouldnt have. My one question is....can I belt it? All outfits are pretty much made better by defining a waist- Im thinking a zebra print belt? Genius! (This plan was later vetoed by the powers that may be- apparently zebra isn't serious enough). And really the cap? I am roughly the size of a 12 year old and have a tiny head so if the cap is cutting off the circulation to my brain it is TOO SMALL. Really if I cant wear it, y'all need to re-evaluate you sizing. Also, hoods should not make one look like a rather somber platypus with a burst of purple for fun and should be far easier to put on. Apparently I am smart enough to graduate but not to put on the stuff I'm supposed to wear. Seriously.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Confessions of a Senior Beach Weekend...
To love like a Lab...
I havent written in a while, mostly because there has been so much going on right now. I'd forgotten how crazy the end of the year can be. Last weekend was particularly rough because my parents had to put down our sweet yellow Labrador, Rocket, very suddenly. My dogs are such a big part of my life so this was of course an incredibly emotional event. This is part of my journal from last weekend and is written just as I first wrote it. Sorry for the terrible rambling sentences but lets be honest, that's how I really talk. I hope this helps you love the way Rocket loved as it has helped me.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
A Beautiful Story
Since today was World Down Syndrome Day this particular story touched me. Not only because it is so emotionally raw and uplifting, but also because it is so true. People with special needs have changed me life: they have given me something to strive to, helped guide me to my calling, made me smile and laugh like no one else, shown me what it means to love unconditionally. No matter if they have Down Syndrome, Autism, CP, or any other special need, they are each beautiful, incredible, unique, and wonderful human beings with a capacity to love that never ceases to astound me. This story is so beautiful because it is absolutely real and something many parents experience each day but offers a message of faith, hope and love. And as we are reminded in Corinthians, the greatest of these is love- a love devoid of stereotypes, prejudice, expectations- just true love. To anyone who loves someone special, someone makes your heart smile and burst with happiness, and who just might change your life- this is for you.
http://donmilleris.com/2010/03/21/nellas-beautiful-story/
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Guilty as Charged
Brace yourselves kids because Spring Awakening is almost here. What is it? Oh, I guess I should tell you it. If you're not way into theatre you might not know, but Spring Awakening is certainly a bright spot on Broadway right now. It won 8 Tony Awards in 2007, including Best Musical but all the awards aren't why you should see it (although it probably helps). You should see it because, frankly, its incredible. Seriously go watch songs and clips on YouTube and you'll see what I mean. Although the subject matter is incredibly deep (sex, abuse, teen pregnancy, abortion, suicide, death) the music is modern and rock and songs you cant seem to get out of your head. The story itself is set in the 1890s but the music is all modern and provides a unique juxtaposition with the period costumes. Overall, you forget what time period you're even in because you realize that over 100 years later we are still dealing with and struggling with the same issues. This is a musical that gets at the heart of the human condition and makes the audience realize that they empathize with the characters and really relate to them. In the early 90s RENT changed the way we looked at theatre and defined a generation; SPRING AWAKENING will do that for this generation. So go to www.peacecenter.com and get tickets to see Spring Awakening in Greenville March 16-21 and experience this incredible and life changing show. And then you can join with those who are already guilty ones....